Today I’m mixing topics! I am adding the last look to three ways to maximizing your wardrobe, and an open letter to a special person I met yesterday. Instead of my photo’s being first, they will appear at bottom of my blog post!
I mixing topics because I came extremely close to not publishing the photo’s for my look without a jacket. I had a moment of clarity that put a lot of my insecurities in perspective. I can only hope that the young lady who helped me, but didn’t know it, is reading this post.
Yesterday, I ran into Dillard’s to get a sensor removed that was accidentally left on at the time of my purchase. On my way out, I decided to browse a little, I always do. I’m not sure why I’m making it seem like this is out of my norm..LOL! A very beautiful young lady in the junior’s department was extremely kind and just overall cheery. Is that even a word? We started with small talk, and a little bit of random chit chat. I walked over to the 3 way mirror to try on a few jackets I grabbed…yes, I’m that person who stands outside of the dressing room trying on clothing…don’t you just love me!
Anyway, I removed my runners jacket to try on a blazer, my new friend looked at me and said “you have a lot of muscles”. I said I have a few, and quickly put my jacket back on. Her perception of my muscles suggested that I’m fit, and workout. Never in a million years would she, or anyone guess that my arms are my biggest insecurity. My arm’s, and traps are the biggest they have ever been in my life. It doesn’t matter if I lift light ,or heavy, they maintain a muscular appearance. I can’t explain it, I do the same workouts as others.
My new friend began to tell me how she started a new workout regime, she was excited to talk about it, and I was happy to share this moment with her. As I browsed around the store a little more she asked me a few more questions. I could tell she wanted to ask me more, but was hesitant. I found a few items, like ALWAYS, and was ready to check out. After I paid, she asked, “how long did it take for you to look like you do”? In my heart, and in that moment, I knew she needed a light at the end of the tunnel. My appearance was a concern in my journey, but not my goal, my goal was overall wellness. I wanted to be fit, healthy, happy, and live without thousands of restrictions. Balance is what helped me arrive at the place I am today. Not shakes, not green juice, and not low carb diets. BALANCE!
I seem to always be in a hurry, all the time. But, I stopped, and knew I needed to be still. I listened to her without interrupting. Yes, just listened. I listened to her talk about food being the hardest part. I listened to her talk about being hungry, a feeling I knew all too well. It was important to me to share I too endure similar struggles.
Our external features don’t show what we battle internally, our insecurities. Her struggle and success put things in perspective for me. Her struggles are current and real! My muscular arm’s aren’t causing me any harm, and so petty in my moment of clarity. I’m far from perfect, I’m human, I make mistakes, and I am not without flaws.
I won’t say her name within this post, but please know that I heard you today! Your kindness is overwhelmingly AMAZING, and you are beautiful in a million ways! I know you will be successful in your journey! Please know that you helped me more today more than I could have ever helped you.
Stay Strong, Stay Consistent!